Why do they tell lies?
Do they think it will be a suprise?

Pack up your troubles in you old kit bag

Niro : There's a lizard !
Arunan : There's a lizard ?!!(with the British accent)
Niro: It's on my back!!!
Arunan : It's on your back!?!  (with the British accent)


HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA

I want something else, to get me through this, Semi-charmed kind of life,

The White Door

You can't deny that whenever when you're listening to a slow harmonic music,you'll tend to just close your eyes and counting up to ten seems to be counting up to 100000.We're seriously in the holiday mood huh?

Happy New Year guys.

My automobile is a piece of crap

Foolish

I passed Eng Ann today after so long hahaha.I miss the teachers in Delta.The stinky mamak.The orange and blue GuardianThe.2 hours Alliance Bank.Such memories haha.I remember the time we played football in front of guardian when I was standard 6 because I have to wait for my brother's class to end at 10.30.3 more days till Christmas.That was fast.Anyway,MERRY CHRISTMAS EVERYONE AND HAPPY HOLIDAYS .Go crazy..go buy a washing machine or something

The Polar Express

That movie was one of my all time favourite.I remember I watched it in Times Square in 3D.Watching this during Christmas eve is totally worth it.Trust me.haha The big nerdy glasses.Look so darn retarded wearing it.


Mcfly's new album is awesome.I downloaded all their song from youtube and I have no idea how to convert from mp4 to mp3.If you know please tell me.

We're being hypnotized

Danny Jones hair!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Today was not my day.Dang!!Let's pray it'll be alright when I'm away this friday.

I Don't Mind

I don't mind hating you
I don't mind looking the sky for the whole day and till it is time to sleep
I don't mind looking at my friends photograph and remember the times they took out the laughing gas
I don't mind growing old but when I'm at the age,I'll tell stories to the young ones
I don't mind if they hate me or say useless stuff about me behind my back
I don't mind if you're in the gossip team
I don't mind if there's no one to give me a hand
I don't mind ifyouplaypretendthinkingeverythingisalright

I fold the letter and think of a million and one things that I could have done different

Serenade

You drank far too much wine
A dizzy spell to block out all the sunshine
But it didn't do you justice for the crime of love
No it didn't do you justice, it didn't do you justice all for her

You've Got A Friend

11 hours of sleep is delightful.I registered myself for Taylors college today with mom.Well,I'm not that excited or looking forward for college life.I mean I know it's gonna be way different than school.11 years of school.11 freaking years haha.Time flies.I'm 18 next year.Lets just pray that everything will turn out fine next year.I want to spend with the lads when it's new year's eve.It's a must.I know for sure everyone will eventually disperse everywhere.You people better not forget about me.I so will punch if you did (:

I have cleared my stack of books already.2 big boxes filled with notes and thick books.Some of it have coffee stain on it haha.So the last subject was EST and the last day I will be wearing my faded school uniform.I'm trying to avoid myself to get bored so usually I have plenty of stuff to do nowadays.Some of you are going for camps or on a super long vacation.Mom asked me to go for Outward bound school program but I said no.I'm kinda having that relaxing moment now,enjoying every breathe I take.Having no arguments with parents or friends which I always have.

Life have their ups and downs.Sometimes we seek for help.No one will be there and it come to a realisation.Your dad and mom will be there.I kinda laugh at myself when I was playing the Xbox.Mom blocked my view while I was playing Fifa 11 and it was like those kan chiong moment when Lampard is dribbling the ball,passing two players and stupid Drogba is passing the offside trap already.Mom purposely did it and I'm like '' Miiii AHHHHH'' haha.

The blisters I have now is irritating and bloody painful haha.Mr.Singh whack the golf ball and guess where it flew?Not left or right or straight.it flew up HAHA The ball freaking flew up and the sound of the ball colliding every hard object.I was like standing there like a statue and my eyes were like moving so fast eyeing where on earth is that freaking ball.

I like weird music nowadays.I thought I'm 'artistic' or some shyt but fine la.I'm taking my undang test this saturday haha.I'm so so way behind.I don't wanna take the KTM to college but if I have no alternative then KTM it is.Haha owh yea,today when my mom and mua were talking to the student counselor.I'm not like paying attention at all.I was like looking at the fees and it's sickening.Mom told me'' You see RM*****.If you take form 6,it's even cheaper.So I shut up .Well,there's nothing I could say but they gave me brochures to have a rough idea on knowing what I plan to do in the future.

It's mid of December already.Holy smokes!~!

To all the friends and aliens I know,just remember the time I punch your arm and run away.If I steal your rulers,you can take them back.Chimo

The Promises All Turn To Lies

We lie beneath the stars at night
Our hands gripping each other tight
You keep my secrets hope to die
Promises, swear them to the sky

I've been following my parents out like never before haha.It's better to go out rather than rot at home.It kind of change the whole routine in a weird way.Spm is finally over.Where's the ''bring bottles to padang'' haha.


We went to Jaya one the other day.The 3 musketeers.Talking and talking and talking.It really felt better after the dramas I had so far.Man,I'm so not gonna lepak in Klang when I have a car.It's so boring already.Well,we're playing golf today so we could be in jusco for awhile.The benefits of your close friend having the car keys when papers are finished is awesome.

Please Don't Go

3 days of futsal and a crazy outing with two gentlemen was frekingly worth it.3 of us didn't actually shop haha but we did kick ass stuff.

Light Speed

I woke up at 9 today and was playing the cubicle box for only minutes and poof.The idea of going to One U suddenly revolve.So three of us hadn't had our breakfast yet but I had a cup of coffee.We ate in a Chinese restaurant.The food was different and nice.Totally worth it but I can't remember the restaurant.Just go to the old wing and see whether there's babi(s) hanging outside the restaurant then you'll know hahaha.We were walking endlessly after storing fuel into our body and bought clothes.The place was crowded as usual.Then,blah blah blah.We went to Pancake house or sth like that to have tea.So black coffee and hot coffee for the three of us and....wait for it....wait for it....PANCAKES!!hahaha Guess what!~!? I freaking paid sial!Okay okay it was cheap so I did a good deed.

After that,we went home but stopped by at studio R and mom bought bread from Papa ricH(WHAT A NAME).Then,we went home and rest till it was 5 something.Before that,my itchy fingers went for it and played it for awhile.haha.Then,went with my dad to the driving range!Yes I still got my awesome hitting.7 iron and it went 160 meter.Of course there were bad shots.I remember last time one of golf lessons hahaha.I hit the ball and it flew backwards and it was like pin ball.HAHAHAHA

8 pm-family dinner.Then,we went to my uncle's house.I played tap tap dance with my dad HAHAHAHA using my cousin's ipad..Smell ya later :) 

 MR.Sundram : HEY LENG CHAI~!

The Moon Is Down

There will always be a small frustration whenever our pair of eyes open in the early morning and that's when the lazy bumps get dressed and have their morning coffee.The papers waiting to get ink on.The part when you're at school,the only thing I can complain about so far was to tie the bloody thread on the add math paper.The green lady will be staring at people and her arms folded.That was really a nerve wreck.Another thing,the brave one usually take chances by leaving the hall early.Honestly,I rather glue my butt to the chair and play dead.

I'm patiently waiting till it's the time.The moment of joy perhaps.Having to wear uniforms to sit for tremendous amount of papers.It feels like we're soldiers.Anywho,My mood swings when I don't get enough of sleep and since last week,sleeping is an issue again.I woke up at 7.16 today.You must be thinking I will always be late for school.I'm always on time!The watch on my wrist will never detach (:

DREAMS,You really piss me off easily.It's like the movies.It's the play.Bad ones or good ones,imagine this,You dreamt of someone who you don't even know walk passes by you or you dreamt about the good times where it's gone or...u dreamt of a being a place and when the dream is over,after days,months or years,you somehow went to that place in dreamland sigh you've been here before but...YEAH BUT.When everything becomes white,school buses honk,the maid knocking on the door and the messy room ..pftt...please,since 13,my room has always been a mess.Only when there's guest,I take the initiative to sweep my room.

Mom's always busy her Buddhist society thing.Day in,day out..she'll be helping all over the place.I mean okay lah but it's just weird.I remember we went to Brickfields for dad's prayer.The place was so huge and so quiet and nice.Shoud have brought me camera Oh well.Felt so lonely at that time haha.

I really feel that I'm gonna lose myself again haha.Maybe it'll go off when finals are deal with.Chimo

I'm still alive but I'm barely breathing

2006-My first camping trip.The part where we had to walk from school to Bukit Cahaya was really crazy and tiring.I thought of camping because of a person haha .Eh this is not a love story or la kay!Slap YOU! haha..My school is not like yours.All boys (: .So the guy brought two bottles of water.BIG ONES like those bottles where cooking oil are placed inside the bottle.That's one of the most gila babi funny crap I ever laughed before.He didn't bring food but just simple clothes haha.Well,I got scolding too kay.My mom gave me a pack of sweets.She said It's better for you to eat it during your journey but I didn't know that it's against the rules of camping so the 13 year old boy got scolded.HAHA

Today! fuuhhh~! I was damn energetic after a staggering 10 hours sleep continuously.In the evening,I went cycling in the rain for 2 hours.haha getting soaked by rainwater was simply awesome.I stopped at 7-eleven to get that RM3.80 ice cream then I went up the hill again.I stare at the buildings.I can see Centro clearly then I look the other side,I could see the Stadium and the mosque.

When I learn to drive,I probably off the phone and go miles and miles just to forget about stupid shity stuff.How I Met Your Mother is getting boring.Big Bang Theory!!


I am fussy I know.So shut up

One by One,

You guys have to watch Football Crazy Castro.It's extremely hilarious when it's Adam C and JD hosting it.

So I'm praying just to let it go

It ended with a smile.Yet,I think it's for the best  (: 

Lets just get this over with SPM.IT'S REALLY DRIVING ME NUTS LIKE A PURE LUNATIC

And in the daytime he just sits and watches television shows

I'll accept with poise, with grace

I think I've got the cold feet already and it's not getting better thinking like this but I have to face it somehow.I took a nap in the afternoon again and it's really rejuvenating .I've been lazy and this and that.Owh stop reminding me people.It sarks really.I dreamt of something extremely weird yesterday.Quite scary actually because usually when I dream about stuff.It's either I forgot about it or I have to crack my head for minutes.Anyways,I woke up at 10 haha! Beat that humans! 1 hour earlier than my current routine.I'm getting tired easily.I remember last month where I always had dizziness and headache.In the end,I usually take a tablet of panadol if it really hurts.So I don't know what's wrong with me.You be the doctor

Hmm maybe I need therapy sessions =/.Trying to recover from my self proclaimed decision cause the other person doesn't seem to find the objective of it.Ah,really must not think about it.I'm still 17 and it's a long way to add it with a number 1.It feels like knocking the head on walls of knowledge and experience so I don't have to break down all of a sudden.Instead,let me feel it by banging my head against concrete walls (: It will be a lesson learned by a 17 year old whose life is gonna waste if he doesn't find his way back home.

I told mom I don't wanna attend tomorrow's dinner in Subang with the Hospice Klang doctor.Dad's buying him dinner as a ''thank you''.I don't feel like going.Maybe Chemistry will suck into my black hole and remain there until a new era awaits.I'll be the universe and books will be spaceship and words will be aliens.It will be like Star Trek LMAO.I need this imagination to study or else I'll be somewhere whenever I see distractions.Like for instance,an ant walk across my book and I'll play with it like a pet with my pencil.Then after that..like today,I went to my brother's room and I played the drums with that SEN-SA-TION-AL Indian beat hahaHA.

URGH,mayday mayday mayday..my link is gone.Go die larhh.I did it so perfectly last time and poof..GONE.I'll renew it after finals.

Tom Delonge:Like I was saying man.As I walk in there.My brother's around and I ended up pissing my own brother

HAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHA

My American Slang

Never felt better these past few days.Surrounded by smiles from everyone and jokes were just lining up on the red carpet,waiting for the paparazzi to burst out of laughter.I've been overcoming my sleeping problems and am proud of myself really.Well,I'm getting up at 11 constantly.It isn't so bad.It will be like those surfer dudes saying ''sweet'' with their slang.Shim was really funny yesterday haha.I didn't know he really can joke that well.Haha one thing for sure we really didn't regret entering bio class.

17 16 13 14...20

Oftentimes,we think we are invincible.We think we will be around forever.We think our friends will be around forever.We think our loved ones will be around forever.Then,goodbyes come along and forever seems so yesterday

Sleeping through the day cause I work all night

I like fishes (: HAHA I'm getting lamer and lamer as usual.I'm gobbling food like nobody's business as usual.Eating and eating but not getting fat.Ah man this ain't right haha.Okay Starting from now no more blogging,facebook...To cut it short,NO MORE INTERNET FULL STOP!I've been in awful shape really.Sleeping for longs hours.11 hours of sleep is seriously too much.Lets draw space ship and aliens with Skywalker killing those monster HAHAHA while studying .It will be awesome.Looking back at the nonsense u sketched during preparation of SPM.I came.I saw,I succeed (:

LAST POST.Good luck is not needed as long as we study.Those who does not study needs it.I don't need it and so do you people.Lets really give our very level best and show what we're made of.Come on lads.Freedom is nearing as long as we give this opportunity to the brain cells.I just deactivated my facebook.

Your brothers and your sisters

11/6/2010
I followed my parents to his old high school friend in Botanic and we freaking got lost FOR LIKE 30 minutes.So the adults chit chatted while I continued eating for two rounds.They were talking the same topic and I'm like there trying to do something else haha.I probably ask the adults '' Lets all sing the KUMBAYAH'' hahaha.The weather was extraordinary these few nights.The sound and feeling of the breeze flowing is just plain awesome.The next day,I woke up 8 but I slept back again till 10.I was like so lost when I woke up.It's like even if you slap right across the face,I'll be like half dead.The receptors are just inactive lol.Mom and I went to Centro to have lunch.Bought carrot cake hahaha.Dad played golf today and the day before.It's really hard to get back his regular momentum after not playing for awhile.I remember seeing him getting trophies like most of the weekends.So yeah spm is coming like a bullet train so I better not slack no more.GOD BLESS ALL FORM 5.We will give everything

Travie McCoy: Need You

Ludovico Einaudi Nuvole Bianche

Happy Deepavali to all my matchas.Yesterday was crazy..Fire crackers and fireworks,both creating a super massive loud sound haha.So this is really it huh?The friends who created lame jokes,playing football during PJ,the boys and me tailing form 6 girls HAHA,the oh so lousy canteen food,walking around the school endlessly.When I was form 1,all I could say was school is boring because I just didn't like the new atmosphere in a new school.I have to admit I GOT lost and chose the wrong path and ended up being mischievous and playful.I was like one of the naughtiest guy who really didn't think before I leap and ended up in the office haha. Then it started from msn where I got to know people better from tuition and it slowly turned the other way around.I guess I ruined it now huh?yeah,I really dislike the idea of going to tuition before that.I was begging my parents to send me to a private school but first my dad said yes but then my mom didn't like the idea so I didn't.

I'm sorry for the incident during form 2 really am.If I could have go back in time,I would have changed it.I was really lost again during early form 3 but I made a lot of new friends from school and that was the year where my school got 2nd in the inter-school basketball tournament in Klang Valley.Never felt so glorious when I scored and Mr Tee hugged me after entering the finals.It was really a big achievement as he was the one who i always see in the office,lecturing,scolding..and I just sit and stare.I did change and I'm what I am now.It's hard to believe that I am close to finish high school and graduate from it .I still talk to the mates who were in my old days haha.Their still breakdancing as usual.They respect me for who I am today and I still crack some jokes to make them laugh to relight the old flame of those days.

I have to admit I was notoriously popular.I mix with everyone,I was colour blind really and even now too.I didn't care whether your different race.I was the guy who laughed the most in class in form 2 and 3 but I was so quiet at home..Never knew why..

Now,it's just a few days left,I hope you guys can forgive me (: Happy Deepavali again.GOD BLESS

Brace Yourself

You know when situations like this we got to take like a man and face whatever outcomes.Whether or not people hates me for being an idiot,I don't mind.You can be the first person or the last person.
Guys,listen to Augustana-Brace .You'll never regret.This is not the end of my path,I'll still find newer ones.Shouldn't have started it early huh? Thanks for being there.

Come on play again
Don't just stand and stare
I keep calling you
You keep taking in

Brace yourself
Brace yourself
Brace yourself
Brace yourself

Take A look Around

IdontknowwheresinsgoIdontknowwheresinsgoIdontknowwheresinsgoIdontknowwheresinsgoIdontknowwheresinsgo

The Needy

Boo! haha Well I went to school today but ended up going back during recess haha after getting back my report card.I didn't get the Sunway Scholarship but it's alright.Experiencing the other day was really nice,getting to know lecturers.

You get in, you get done and then you get gone

I'm a paranoid,double sided,ignorant,so so much anger and hatred in my mind.

Mom's birthday is on Thursday and I'm not really sure there's dinner with the whole family again.We ate Tony Roma's on Saturday and she said that is more than enough but dad said we're going to eat western in Subang near the old airport .No clue where is the place but HEY! IT'S WESTERN...meat!!




I'm still that little boy who is afraid to watch horror movies and other things too.I remember when my sister and brother told me ghost stories and I cried.I still remember.Even though,I act like I'm a shinning armor ready to take the hard impact but inside,it's just nothing there.

I'm that boy who can never stop arguing with my mom.You can never see a day where Rudy shuts his pie hole and it always ends with a catastrophic silence like the end of world war II where soldiers gave their hope up and admit the fight wasn't worth it.

Enemies - well I don't think they ever sleep,

Where are the motivational and inspirational voices in my bloody head.Please don't go away.Bare with me for one month please .I will not wave the white flag .I will not give up.Why do I have to procrastinate at this time around.Why can't it be like some time after the exams because I am really fatique and restless whenever we have to sit down and absorb information like a machine that can easily rust.Oh I wish there's a replication of me who does the studying and mua,I do the partying.

Dusk & Summer

And she combed your hair, and she kissed your teeth
And she made you better than you'd been before
She told you bad things you wished you could change in the lazy summer
And she told you, laughing down to her core, so she would not cry as she lay in your lap
She said "nobody here can live forever, quiet in the grasp of dusk and summer"

They zap us with their red light

So interview was okay.I was like practically nervous a bit and well,I did kicked that away.well,it went okay.They asked about ''do you agree whether or not husbands should share maternity leave''.No matter how weird it was I still manage to answer it .I don't know what is the outcome but I hope I get it.We had a few laughs so yeah it was cool and awesome.The guy was a Physics lecturer .It turned out well

Pennsylvania

I get ubber pissed when this things happen.Forgiving is one thing but it's somehow a slow process to calm down.Do you think I am that kind of person?I mean fine lah you don't get along with people but you shouldn't have done that like seriously.As i feel angry,i know the guilt is dominating anger and you know what,it's alright.It left a scar near the eyes but i could have done so much more to you .I changed.I saw vividly the old me who's truly disgusting but I don't think I am that kind anymore.So yeh we're good.I still talk to you normally kay.

Anywho,I hate that moment when I get back my marks.I hate the feeling of friends asking and their eagerness to know my results lah.I am not those bright students but learning to accept is like something new to me.

Sunway's Scholarship interview is this week so wish me luck .I didn't get Taylors but that's really obvious.I just did what i have to do to decrease the pressure my parents are having although my dad said it's really okay.

Pn.Mashita's talk was amazing.She's one of the best teacher in high school for English and she marks SPM papers so i think she has more experience than any other teachers in that school.

I wonder when happiness will be knocking my front door and not my mom yelling and knocking so hard until the wooden door actually breaks and have her marks of her fist on the door

I am watching how i met your mother (: BARNEY!~! what up? suit up? awesome! haha he's famous words of style.

Finally I get this feeling we're all alone in one big world

It's scary enough to feel non other than pain and misery.It's scary enough to think of not existing and disapearing from sight.Your cold hands willing to touch humankind but failed .It passes through solid objects easily.It doesn't hurts because there's nothing we can feel.Mentally not right but spiritually...it's worst.You walk alone a narrow,quiet and dark road and watching beggars crawling and begging and begging..One saw you eye to eye and you smiled then walk pass by.Hunger wasn't a subject to the mind and the contrast of ecstasy was so close yet so far.A saviour taps you on your shoulder and holds a manila card.He takes the black marker and started writing 'I AM YOUR SAVIOUR'

And you began to believe that all you are is material,It's nonsensical

The day you lost your dreams at 12 and regained the courage to step up and stand on the solid flat ground.No wind can be resistance,No man is at fault,Dreams are just dreams,fact and fiction are still fact and fiction and RUDY is trying to be fat but tough luck.


10/10/10

I do - like sugar - tend toward the brittle and sticky when spun

A free Saturday with no directions on my mind so the day before that 4am was the knocking off system for me.A good 8 hours of coma and a late breakfast..disgusting..I knw (: Anyways.it was super hot today and I thought it was the rainy season already since it's October ..Oh well.
I'm sick of trying and trying .Maybe you can got suck it all up and be gone (:

You can still get roasted because Marsh is not mellow

Head spinning,thrash talking,paper filled with 6000 words,unpredictable FACES.So having my birthday on trials wasn't so bad after all.It was two English papers so thank God for that.It's very weird when you have to stay at home while others will be somewhere having fun.Neh, I am not envy or whatsoever,just grabbing the patience tightly as I can.It's funny when the older generation asked us to relax and take a chill pill but I'm really glad that it's over.Sundram said when the going gets tough,the tough gets going (: That really gave a hard slap somehow.So here I am finally using my fingers for typing and not for writing.It's really tiring to keep on doing the same thing the whole day from school to tuition and back to school again.SIAO! Okay at least now maybe I could play a game of futsal and watch the tele like there's tomorrow haha I know I'll get that extraordinary yelling if I abused it.Seriously,I really don't know how those smart ones survive.Over frustrations take my life like a piece of cake.Moody as before,who cares?YOU KNOW WHAT I WANT A IPAD! LOL haha looking at my cousins having all those techi gadjets is crazy.

Oh, Adrienne, I thought I knew you
Once again, you used me, used me
Adrienne, I should have left you
Long before you used me, Used me up

taking off chimo

Just forget me it's that simple Just forget me it's that simple

You're sitting on the pavement,feeling nothing but remorse and suddenly a pinch of coldness suddenly comes in till there's 0 degrees Celsius in you.Nothing moves but just that electric heartbeat at every second.Watching things from the past to the present made you stuck at one point thinking it's all over.This time the coldness in you makes everything burn.The effort you put all in that cubicle box...burned.It tend to make the inner voice of you fades and telling it's gone.It came like a time bomb but I guess we saved the day.One more week guys.Reach for the light.


Birthday photos are on facebook.Chimo

Town lights come alive like a land mine

ADD MATHS,Don't you dare rip my head off

"Scissor shaped across the bed, you are red, violent red."

2 papers gone and lots more to go i guess.Good luck people.Get your fighting spirit and burn it with tips and soalan bocor.

You see, I know a few of your favorite things.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MR RUDY.17 IS STILL YOUNG.WOOOT.I GOT A NEW BICYCLE.NAH.I GOT ICE CREAM CAKE.HAHA.MUSTARD.FIRE.GOOD.TRIALS.TIME.SICK.HATE.SCREAM.YOU.ACE.

She Started Swayin So Sexy And Lookin At Me

PN.SUNITA:WHAT QUESTION ARE YOU DOING BOY

YOU KNOW WHAT HE ANSWERED...

JOSHUA :...err 3 BEST FRIENDS

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA

EPIC I TELL YOU

New York...LA....Amen

But I see your true colors
shining through
I see your true colors
and that's why I love you
so don't be afraid to let them show

so the other day was my sister's birthday and the SEAH'S went to Port Klang to change the menu which is always Chinese food.Pampered and childish much,we chose seafood .Two tables,loaded with talkative adults and also the computerised kids.Well,they're still young aren't they haha.After having fishes,crabs and prawns in our acidic stomach,we went back to cut the cake and have the taste of extraordinary champagne.The Chelsea game was on against Stoke but there wasn't any number 6 on the score line so it was a dull one and bloody Frankie missed a penalty.When everyone got back to their dwelling,my tongue itch so were Rox and the friend.They went to bought soft drinks to concoct with the heavy drinks.Conclusion,the taste was awful LMAO.

I love to rap about myself

She wasted Summer Like She Has It All

Everyone knows that we can't get all we wish for or hope for.Relying on a person is always the hardest and it kills inside knowing that they don't realise that you're undergoing stupid and ridiculous problems.And it sarks when they're trying to cover themselves up when it's still happening.When you think back,all I know that it's a lie ...a harmless lie for the other opposition but the one experiencing goes thru hell.

Like It's Her Birthday

Come fly down, like a singing bird
Sings your name, I am still the same,
Black and white, no you're not to blame,
Holly sweet...put me down to shame...

Been downloading a lot songs lately...WHAT TO DO (:

Hoping for the best just hoping nothing happens

It's like I am on top of those skyscrapers,wantonly to fall off and my inner voice in the bloody self centered head slowly fades off.The guilt in your heart breaks apart watching cancer patients entering the old hospital.The rumors going about in your school.I'm not bothered about who is right or wrong.I'm worried if I don't succeed at all because everyone seem to be battling the sacrifices made by life.I'm battling problems of my own too.It doesn't matter if I feel like a class clown or got blinded by illuminations from the sun.Sometimes, to be blind for a day and sense nothing but touch and sound is what I want.Lunatic but better than seeing different unpredictable faces but I'm alright (: You know life is really confusing and I'm still figuring what is that that make people fall in love,being happy,suicide,cry,lie and etc.I've done so much to hurt people all round me till they cry .I admit I beat myself up so badly to cry,just to evaporate the tired feeling of loneliness away.Everyone has their own chapters in life and always creating new ones-the day I kicked your ass in football,the day she felt you,the day I almost got expelled from school.I have change so much and it's okay I guess.Change is good.I'm sick and tired of myself complaining.So I'm giving advice to myself actually and to look at this post 5 years later ...Rudy,you're gonna be one hect of a man someday .

You got designer shades just to hide your face

When I was so much younger then, 'he' was the first one to introduce my dad to his ever job after coming back from UK.I'm really in the nostalgia mood now.I don't have photographic memories but I can still visualise one of his daughters holding my hand when we were out together to somewhere which I really have forgotten.One hand clamped and the otherholding an ice cream.A cheerful guy but until he got all those sickness,it's terrifying .After school,usually I'll pass by his dwelling and my involuntary mind keeps going back to good old times.Uncle Jimmy May God Bless You.It's alright if You can't hear my inner voice but I'm still saying this prayer .

Your Majesty

You know when I was in standard 5,a band called Busted was kinda those music I can go crazy with like Crashed The Wedding,Sleeping With The Light On and year 3000..Me and Shawn will be playing football with him holding his N-gage...I think it's the correct spelling.The phone was awesome at that time .So here's the latest news of Busted .You busted fanatics ....go crazy (:

In June 2010 it was reported Will and Bourne would be touring again as Busted but without Simpson and if the tour went well that a new album would be released in 2011 with possibly a new third member.



Mcfly sexy new movie

I throw my hands up in the air sometimes saying ay-yo

Playing a fascinating game called football when it had just rained in the morning,the slippery muddy grass.Laughter and joy of classmates,the injury...because your friend just hit you in the head and he's LIKE your teammate.What nonsense dei..(: Damn it was tiring and I was fatigue and was sitting on the ground after a few minutes.Well worth it and with your coolio friends whether it's Malay,Chinese or Indian...Man you guys can make me laugh so hard. I appreciate all of you ...OWH YEA...Singh also okay ...Singh is King haha .I was like thinking some race that I was missing out LMAO. We got our class photo today and comparing last years photo...MAN,you guys getting harrier HAHAHA just joking..You guys look damn awesome .Make sure you get awesome people to date with in the future...boy or girl..I'll support you (: .

Today was really I dunno what you called it ...maybe it's like one of the days where you got hit by the door when coming inteo the class..I wrestled Tuck Keng and KUMAR HAHAHAHAHA .KUMAR I LOVE YOU DEIII!! So I named Chin Kuan,Harold and Raymond,Kumar.So that adds up to HAROLD AND KUMAR HAHAHA...Well,better read logic gate now .Chimo

You woke up and said baby I, had one of those dreams again

Everything is happening so fast isn't it?I just want a chance to feel good and not bare with different kinds of crazy feelings again.Honestly,I'm a total stranger to everyone out there.Well,it's normal facing all these.Anyways,my add maths is really killing me and it's really frustrating .WELL,LET'S ALL DIE

Teenagers scare the living shit out of me

Headache...my head feels like it got hit by a car .HISTORY....I'm so dead




IT'S MY MORNING ALARM !! (:

Neon Lights,Shine Us Bright,We Are Here Tonight

The days are much more colder than usual.The atmosphere is not delightful and pure sunshines ruined the fare skins of people nowadays .Well,I think this week was one of my worst but I think I'm used to all these already I guess.Well,the National Service candidates are released and the time for students to really finalise one of the tough decisions in individual lives.I can't believe I'm feeling it really..and all these are really haunting to be separated or will be separating from your awesome ones but hey,there will be a happy ending one day.So screw it if it hurts.The end point...wish I could draw a big circle with an arrow and point it straight back to the starting line.

Sun-kissed skin,So hot ,Will melt your popsicle

ALRIGHT MATRICULATION THIS MATRICULATION THAT...No I am not doing it .Dad's birthday was yesterday..well,I don't want to say much because it will definitely be long .so Thaks for everything..NS ...dude this shit scares me when I'm waiting for the dude to reply and everyone is like hitting lottery in Vegas weh except me (:

I don't know if you write letters or you panic on the phone

LIKE WHATEVER AUNTY!

Hey,Wish you hadn't blown my mind and killed the suprise

I know every single one of you watched the World Cup.It doesn't matter if it's a glimpse of the epic Huntelaar or the crazy sprinter Ozil.I know you guys will somehow watch with your families.So yeah it's the taste of booze and pizza,ALL OVER YA!Two recent Germany matches were really inspiring.You can hear the shouts,cheers and laughter with the eyes shut but still trying to look on the big screen.I know I've not mention about the English but they OFFICIALLY suck and are in deep shit now.So yeah,Cappelo's men are in dead meat ready to be sliced with the shiny knife.I know there's also dark secrets,people gambling and stuff but it's really honestly funny seeing how teenagers now negotiate,betting their 10 bucks or whatever.For instance,they'll wrap their frigging pinky to the other party and will do their magic of betting in style HAHA or writing on a piece of fresh paper from your school exercise book.Anyways,it's ending soon so football mania will be gone.

Well Monday was slightly okay since everything was back to normal except I was having flu and coughing.Me being the hero played basketball during PJ like usual.Tiring but it's well worth it haha Everyone was watching us like the students from our block and the students at the science lab.Yeh everyone who was in the semicircle shape court was seriously focusing a 100%,creating opportunities to make that darn orange ball into the net.After the game,my back pain started and blisters under my feet because of the inappropriate shoe used.So after recess,we went to the library as usual and I took out my shoe.There was blood on both of my left and right feet and I didn't notice.How stupid am I not knowing all these.It was fine UNTIL I showered.It hurts like gila babi indescribable pain torturing me.So I was limping even since having that ''FUN'' 30 minute exercise.After school I slept until 5.17..awesome

Tuesday was okay I guess..

We might kiss when we are alone
When nobody's watching
We might take it home
We might make out when nobody's there
It's not that we're scared
It's just that it's delicate

So why'd you fill my sorrows
With the words you've borrowed
From the only place you've known
And why'd ya sing Hallelujah
If it means nothing to you
Why'd you sing with me at all?

I May Be Rude But I'm The Truth

Gosh my whole head is spinning like a frigging tornado now.I'm so sleepy nowadays.I'm always using up my afternoons sleeping soundlessly and when the the skies are dark I will tend to sleep again like usual..Maybe I should fall asleep till I'm 90.So I don't have to relate my stories to the unknown but on the other hand,they could tell me about mine when I was almost dead for years.That will be awesome.Dooms day is next friday .So take a good look because you gonna regret it (:

Ever Fallen In Love

You know I was suppose to get ready for my oral which is tomorrow but I got a feeling it will be delayed and due only on Thursday.I think my brains were overpowered by the 70 objective questions I did this morning in class .Well,mom,dad and rox are on the plane now.

A dark fairy tale about a man who only wanted it in

The wrong feeling at the wrong place and time...gessh ..tired of this dramatic emotions...

Your laugh is a disease

Sometimes you just want to disperse in the air and forget about everything that's in your head.The creepy feeling of losing someone,the cold sadness of never getting what you want,the cruel words and just anger all over you.I get it,everyone is not psychic,they couldn't tell or imagine what you really want,what you really need but the frustrations and destruction going through your weak mind.Yes I'm already a sucker ...oh everyone knows it,Having a bullshit experience now,,,this song makes you wanna cry,,tears of joy? ...no

Goo Goo Dolls-Here Is Gone

Breakkkkkk

So I leave work get to the high street and i miss my bus

Alright not a perfect Tuesday,slightly boring,blazing sun,procrastinated entirely but went tuition,sleepy like a pig,aching body...my sickoo Tuesday.Parents are leaving on Thursday that means ...I wanted to say freedom but nahhh.They'll be back on 30th June with Rox.My brother is having his finals soon so practically,the whole house is gonna be quiet..sort of those haunted mansions in Transylvania haha..Damn,I need to get fat like siaoo... I always buy long or short pants which is so loose..and when the belt is not functioning...LOL It happened to m on Monday and the people were there looking at me adjusting my belt ..STUPID BUCKLE..and she's like beside me ..but i changed to the shorts to save myself to defy gravity HAHAHAH .It's not gonna be the same anymore after this week...Nothing last huh? Well,it should..Last week and the start of this new week,I've got the feeling that someone is telling me something,giving signs which I still can't figure it out what it is but all I know is it thought me valuable lessons like for instance who to trust,who is gonna be there for you and yeh the drawbacks are there too..Well,the mural painting turn out well I guess?

15 of June,Man,I am gonna miss all those moments wearing ugly uniforms,the ugly hair do,beautiful friends,ugly teachers...oops.I think the pop group Westlife and the sexaayy Ryan Cabrera were the icons that made my hair STAND HAHAHA.not joking ...ROX! still remember ah HAHAHAHA.Rox told me that Ryan Cabrera will wax his hair before going to sleep and the next day...his hair will be awesome like the usual..yeh good times.OKay my entire body feels like I came back from war.Chimo

Wonderwall