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I'm depressed.Consistently.My mind is dead.My feelings and emotions are upside down...These months have been the worst.Not thinking straight like I used to and doing things which always end up as a wrongdoing. Even today the doctor said Why are you so sad? Just blurred out without words to say to him. Yesterday Maha planned a surprise party for me.Totally unexpected because when I reached at the makan place, 3 sets of different groups I usually mix with. Well, my head was as usual lost so I gave that shocked looked on my face then Daniel hugged me and was like what's all these? And then the cake came happy belated birthday Rudy. Finally it made sense.These people who came, I can trust. Depression is eating me up slowly..