Brace Yourself

You know when situations like this we got to take like a man and face whatever outcomes.Whether or not people hates me for being an idiot,I don't mind.You can be the first person or the last person.
Guys,listen to Augustana-Brace .You'll never regret.This is not the end of my path,I'll still find newer ones.Shouldn't have started it early huh? Thanks for being there.

Come on play again
Don't just stand and stare
I keep calling you
You keep taking in

Brace yourself
Brace yourself
Brace yourself
Brace yourself

Take A look Around

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The Needy

Boo! haha Well I went to school today but ended up going back during recess haha after getting back my report card.I didn't get the Sunway Scholarship but it's alright.Experiencing the other day was really nice,getting to know lecturers.

You get in, you get done and then you get gone

I'm a paranoid,double sided,ignorant,so so much anger and hatred in my mind.

Mom's birthday is on Thursday and I'm not really sure there's dinner with the whole family again.We ate Tony Roma's on Saturday and she said that is more than enough but dad said we're going to eat western in Subang near the old airport .No clue where is the place but HEY! IT'S WESTERN...meat!!




I'm still that little boy who is afraid to watch horror movies and other things too.I remember when my sister and brother told me ghost stories and I cried.I still remember.Even though,I act like I'm a shinning armor ready to take the hard impact but inside,it's just nothing there.

I'm that boy who can never stop arguing with my mom.You can never see a day where Rudy shuts his pie hole and it always ends with a catastrophic silence like the end of world war II where soldiers gave their hope up and admit the fight wasn't worth it.

Enemies - well I don't think they ever sleep,

Where are the motivational and inspirational voices in my bloody head.Please don't go away.Bare with me for one month please .I will not wave the white flag .I will not give up.Why do I have to procrastinate at this time around.Why can't it be like some time after the exams because I am really fatique and restless whenever we have to sit down and absorb information like a machine that can easily rust.Oh I wish there's a replication of me who does the studying and mua,I do the partying.

Dusk & Summer

And she combed your hair, and she kissed your teeth
And she made you better than you'd been before
She told you bad things you wished you could change in the lazy summer
And she told you, laughing down to her core, so she would not cry as she lay in your lap
She said "nobody here can live forever, quiet in the grasp of dusk and summer"

They zap us with their red light

So interview was okay.I was like practically nervous a bit and well,I did kicked that away.well,it went okay.They asked about ''do you agree whether or not husbands should share maternity leave''.No matter how weird it was I still manage to answer it .I don't know what is the outcome but I hope I get it.We had a few laughs so yeah it was cool and awesome.The guy was a Physics lecturer .It turned out well

Pennsylvania

I get ubber pissed when this things happen.Forgiving is one thing but it's somehow a slow process to calm down.Do you think I am that kind of person?I mean fine lah you don't get along with people but you shouldn't have done that like seriously.As i feel angry,i know the guilt is dominating anger and you know what,it's alright.It left a scar near the eyes but i could have done so much more to you .I changed.I saw vividly the old me who's truly disgusting but I don't think I am that kind anymore.So yeh we're good.I still talk to you normally kay.

Anywho,I hate that moment when I get back my marks.I hate the feeling of friends asking and their eagerness to know my results lah.I am not those bright students but learning to accept is like something new to me.

Sunway's Scholarship interview is this week so wish me luck .I didn't get Taylors but that's really obvious.I just did what i have to do to decrease the pressure my parents are having although my dad said it's really okay.

Pn.Mashita's talk was amazing.She's one of the best teacher in high school for English and she marks SPM papers so i think she has more experience than any other teachers in that school.

I wonder when happiness will be knocking my front door and not my mom yelling and knocking so hard until the wooden door actually breaks and have her marks of her fist on the door

I am watching how i met your mother (: BARNEY!~! what up? suit up? awesome! haha he's famous words of style.

Finally I get this feeling we're all alone in one big world

It's scary enough to feel non other than pain and misery.It's scary enough to think of not existing and disapearing from sight.Your cold hands willing to touch humankind but failed .It passes through solid objects easily.It doesn't hurts because there's nothing we can feel.Mentally not right but spiritually...it's worst.You walk alone a narrow,quiet and dark road and watching beggars crawling and begging and begging..One saw you eye to eye and you smiled then walk pass by.Hunger wasn't a subject to the mind and the contrast of ecstasy was so close yet so far.A saviour taps you on your shoulder and holds a manila card.He takes the black marker and started writing 'I AM YOUR SAVIOUR'

And you began to believe that all you are is material,It's nonsensical

The day you lost your dreams at 12 and regained the courage to step up and stand on the solid flat ground.No wind can be resistance,No man is at fault,Dreams are just dreams,fact and fiction are still fact and fiction and RUDY is trying to be fat but tough luck.


10/10/10

I do - like sugar - tend toward the brittle and sticky when spun

A free Saturday with no directions on my mind so the day before that 4am was the knocking off system for me.A good 8 hours of coma and a late breakfast..disgusting..I knw (: Anyways.it was super hot today and I thought it was the rainy season already since it's October ..Oh well.
I'm sick of trying and trying .Maybe you can got suck it all up and be gone (:

You can still get roasted because Marsh is not mellow

Head spinning,thrash talking,paper filled with 6000 words,unpredictable FACES.So having my birthday on trials wasn't so bad after all.It was two English papers so thank God for that.It's very weird when you have to stay at home while others will be somewhere having fun.Neh, I am not envy or whatsoever,just grabbing the patience tightly as I can.It's funny when the older generation asked us to relax and take a chill pill but I'm really glad that it's over.Sundram said when the going gets tough,the tough gets going (: That really gave a hard slap somehow.So here I am finally using my fingers for typing and not for writing.It's really tiring to keep on doing the same thing the whole day from school to tuition and back to school again.SIAO! Okay at least now maybe I could play a game of futsal and watch the tele like there's tomorrow haha I know I'll get that extraordinary yelling if I abused it.Seriously,I really don't know how those smart ones survive.Over frustrations take my life like a piece of cake.Moody as before,who cares?YOU KNOW WHAT I WANT A IPAD! LOL haha looking at my cousins having all those techi gadjets is crazy.

Oh, Adrienne, I thought I knew you
Once again, you used me, used me
Adrienne, I should have left you
Long before you used me, Used me up

taking off chimo

Just forget me it's that simple Just forget me it's that simple

You're sitting on the pavement,feeling nothing but remorse and suddenly a pinch of coldness suddenly comes in till there's 0 degrees Celsius in you.Nothing moves but just that electric heartbeat at every second.Watching things from the past to the present made you stuck at one point thinking it's all over.This time the coldness in you makes everything burn.The effort you put all in that cubicle box...burned.It tend to make the inner voice of you fades and telling it's gone.It came like a time bomb but I guess we saved the day.One more week guys.Reach for the light.


Birthday photos are on facebook.Chimo