I guess this is growing up

2 things happened today and I'm unsatisfied with myself to be part of this suicidal day.Having a hard slap across the face might be less painful than what I received today.Being a sentimentalist doesn't help at all.If a miracle is about to happen,I wish for a golden compass to guide me from every obstacles I face.When I do get it,maybe in the future I could pass it to someone else who really deserves it.Life can be cruel at times and when we need help,there will be moments where the helping hand to spare are gone,noses facing up and ignorant eyes avoiding everything they meet.I say good luck to all of you.