Remember

Impersonality

 

 

And all the roads that lead to you were winding

 Saturday-had breakfast with my parents like the usual in Subang.I went to the library to borrow books for my assignment.Err okay fine... a book.A freaking book! hahaha Didn't know the library would close at 1 so luckily,I manage to finish up my things earlier.So I went down to the student lounge and stare at the sunray.It was so bright.Everything was really white.It was only Me and the book which I was so lazy to read.Parents were at empire gallery.When I was satisfied,my dad wanted to look at cars in PJ so I had to follow.Me and cars are like ..it doesn't form any sense!You compare one Mercedes and a Volvo.HMMM I'll say yea it's the same  ...expensive hahahahah.In the afternoon,well pretty much nothing.just waited for lunch with dad.I downloaded Rio angry birds and fruit ninja in his new obsessed phone.At night,they had dinner.Some unknown person's birthday.80th birthday actually.cool eh?WALAOWEHH I wanna live longer..Me?some unknown 18th birthday haha.



When you're sitting quietly while holding a wine glass,everything seems so dull and the gentle wind at night touching your face.At this point,it really feels that time is nothing.Tracing back the steps I took since last time,I always have this thing that I'm always talking when I am not suppose to.I'm not relating anything about yesterday.Yesterday was fine.The boys had a fun time.In that specific table where I sat,people gossip,people were enjoying their drinks,people were sleepy.I was simply acting like those moments where guys suppose to be during a candle light dinner haha.Funny fact about their family,they're really nice people.Never had I see before a family so joyful and loud haha.Wong,you bloody rascal.you should be happy and I know where you got your suara from.haha



Prayers.The weather was good in the morning and now,it's like boiling.Everything went smoothly like how it was suppose to be for decades.I showed my dad a picture of him and the family when they were much younger.That time where my grand-mom and granddad were alive.I left him alone with the faded photo and took a glimpse as I went to my room.He was really staring.I guess it was ''one of those''photos.It was a picture with everyone including my aunt and uncle at the grave.Haha funny thing that we always had trouble to find the grave.Every year,it's the same old story.We were searching for like 15 minutes. My eyes were really spot on.It's like I look at one huge tombstone out of hundreds but I kept quiet because obviously,I thought they knew better.After looking for so long,I was like nahh can't be.Then when my cousin approach to the grave I saw a few minutes before,he was like Hereeee!.Creepy huh?I don't know who said to bring a GPS to find the grave hahaha,I think it was my mom It drizzle for awhile so we hasten the process by a bit.

Then,after praying to my great grandparents,we headed to the hill where my grandparents and uncle ashes were.They called that place fairy park.I saw the dude's house who owns fairy park.Bloody huge and the pattern on the walls of his dwelling were exactly the same.It's in andalas near my aunt's place.So after praying and burning those papers,I went up again.To pay respect to an old man who took care of me when I was young.When my mom and dad had to work and my grandparents too had to work in the shop,I went to this small house just behind the shop.Thinking back all these,I think I'm that person who cannot let go of things so easily.Well,I think most of my posts were about the past which I think it's really somehow a bad thing.Anyway,we went back around 9 something.I was having a headache already as usual.I slept till 1.

College is starting tomorrow.I think they broaden the work load  and it is starting to rise beyond sea level.I really hope they don't ask the question which I don't want to answer but I think like my friend said,the whole will slowly fade off by a week or so.For now,enjoy the last days of March.Chimo

Sleepwalking Around Her

It's gonna be April soon.Very soon.

Hopefully,Wong's party will turn out to be the bomb.Sunday okay I have to wake up at 5 am for prayers.Well,I suppose it's gonna be a gloomy day,paying respect to our ancestors .

City Light

I was in this old coffee shop with my parents.Average age of people there were like 70s to 80s and it's quite peaceful y'knw.Retired.They can be there from morning till noon .Everything was alright.I planned to sit there longer and just stare outside of the shop but mom thinks i was getting bored so she asked me a lot of questions.I had no choice to answer.I kept feeling that my life is slowly turning upside down.It takes time because of the recent fall.Dad kept advising.I tried to sleep the entire day.Faking smiles and being ego defensive is what I have to show now.People change.They come and go.No matter how fast or slow.Some people can have bitchy attitude or a real sweet one with the cherry on top.Good or bad they come and go.There's time where a certain person shines at you like those beautiful neon lights.You get attracted to it like insects.Never wanting to leave the brightness.You asked yourself what if the illumination suddenly gets dim...So you sit and stare for so long till someone distracts you.No matter how ridiculous you look like,embarrassment is nothing .

There's time where we get influenced by people easily.That's a disease which is never ending.Didn't know where your limits are and you end up having a heartache.I need to cover up .

Swallow your pride and concentrate on the next.I know I am an arrogant fool at times.When she sms-ed,tears just .. i can't help it at times.I guess I was wrong the whole time.I wish I can do much more.

You're an island and my ship is running ground

Brendan James-The Lucky Ones

Allstar weekend - Not Your Birthday

MGMT-Electric Feel

Bruno Mars-Talking To The Moon

Kesha-Blow

One Republic-All We Are

Not Your Birthday

Party like it’s not, party like it’s not
Like it’s not your birthday

I guess that summarizes what the 4 of us have been doing today.Now,I think a moment of silence and hope is all I need.

I guess this is growing up

2 things happened today and I'm unsatisfied with myself to be part of this suicidal day.Having a hard slap across the face might be less painful than what I received today.Being a sentimentalist doesn't help at all.If a miracle is about to happen,I wish for a golden compass to guide me from every obstacles I face.When I do get it,maybe in the future I could pass it to someone else who really deserves it.Life can be cruel at times and when we need help,there will be moments where the helping hand to spare are gone,noses facing up and ignorant eyes avoiding everything they meet.I say good luck to all of you.

You've Got A Friend

You're one hell of a friend.

I'm coming back to my girl by July

Really hyper today for some reason.Daniel must be hurt badly from my frequent punching.I had this thing where I needed to punch a dude's arm everyday.The story never gets old (: Today was okay.I went to lakeside at 11 and reached back to the boring campus at 12 sth.I needed to give my brother's portfolio and the other 7 tagged along to borrow books from the crazy library.If we're lucky,we might go to lakeside for second semester if March intake students are overflowed .Cool eh? It happened last year so pray ah!They got a frigging Wong kok there.It's so commercialise.It's like a mall there.Everything is good except for Thursday.Worst day so far.Hope it doesn't happen again.Oh well when the going gets tough,the tough gets going right?Happy Holidays SAM intake dudes (;

Next time you point a finger
I might have to bend it back
Or break it, break it off
Next time you point a finger
I'll point you to the mirror

Up

Imagination has got it's beautiful moment when I was small.Seeing things differently than others.I'm 17 and that is lost.How sad.

You don't have to listen to us because we might be wrong but know the consequences.Be humble that's all.They said that and more in the morning.How to not be so choked up when I have to make my decision sooner or later?

Bird York

Sometimes we try to forgive and forget.Others don't because they are just like that.At most.I stereotype people instantly.I know it's the worst thing ever to do this or even trying.I.As time passes by,I hope it'll change.

Don't ever look back

This week has been yet again stressful but it really did felt like triumphant,on top of the world.Although everyone was being stressed up because of assignments and tests.We still had the crazy moments during Sam fiesta,I didn't really took photos of the gang but it doesn't really matter does it?Everyone almost lost their voice during the the party,The performances were amazing.Girls shouting with their high annoying pitch voices and the guys with their bass like voice rock the whole atmosphere.Everyone was jumping and dancing.Dancing was WOW.Everyone danced like never before and having so much enthusiasm.Didn't care who's the chick or the dude beside,everyone made friends plus,everyone look awesome.G5 students were dancing in a circle when the dance floor was opened.Loud music,awesome music,beautiful music,all in one.This is what made things more exciting.The event was on a Thursday so the next day,everyone wasstoned haha but not me of course haha.I was joking with everyone.haha.Daniel was half dead.Useless fella hahaha.Friday is like the best day of college so far.After college,went to eat at Paparich with Kamachee because I have to wait for Daniel.I took ktm 3 days in a row,starting from wed till fri,So after his practice with Shu Ling,we walked to the Ktm station and my mom send us back when we reached Klang.Played the xbox with Daniel..Had some laugh then at 6,went to play futsal.I crove him back later on.

Everything's Magic

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Fiona's Song

Those random moments we had in high school.Aww is one of the happiest thing to be in an all boys school.

Misuse

You know life can be simple if everyone just play their role of being neutral.A piece of advice.We all have our drawbacks and I get used to it and the people around me accepts who I am today.Whether positive or negative,I try not to manipulate myself.As arrogant as I can be for today or tomorrow,I still stand on my ground whether or not I'm tired.Things can be easy.Just note that down if you have to.

Track And Field

I'm getting a lot of knocks and bruises lately.This is bad because I hardly can walk hahahaha and I dunno why I just put that ''hahaha'' thing when it hurts especially when I have to climb 3 floors of stairs.It's normal really but then I'm scared I'll feel the pain later on as in when I'm OLD!! haha.

Delicate

Nobody likes being left out.Well,maybe not you but me.I never like being the last one to know about something.It's just irritating.I think I could just sit down at stare at a certain object for hours now.I'm so sleepy yet I don't wanna sleep.

8 pills in the morning and 8 at night.16 pills total.Life's good.

The Closed Door

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