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(A small conversation between me and dad in 2005)

''No''

"Why?"

"Look at the sky. It's going to rain any minute now."

"It won't rain Dee. Please."

Dad said no to football practice one day. After multiple annoying whining, the word 'please' and the sunken face, dad gave up and decided to send me to school. I knew it would rain. The sky was gloomy, slowly painting itself with only one colour ; dark brown. The sun was hiding behind the present white clouds. The trees were dancing to the sound of the wind. The security guard, still in his small cubicle room, snoring like always. Dad had a meeting so he had to rush off to his appointment venue after sending me to La salle. I waited at the usual spot beside the library. There were only two students excluding me who came that day. One anonymous guy left. So, it was only me and this guy. The afternoon classes were still going on as usual. The secondary boys. Well, they were as noisy as a photograph from the 19th century. 

Then, it rained. The wind got stronger and we became statues for quite some time until the rain turn into slight drizzles. The school was flooded. The outside was pretty bad. Me and the guy ran like mad dogs around the school, racing among ourselves. We ran fast. Both waited for our dads to pick us when it was time. He went back first. His dad on a motorcycle. Dad picked me up and he didn't ask anything about that. So I remained quiet. He knew I played in the rain. Of course he knew. I was still wet from the crazy ride. He explained it to the family later during dinner. That I remember but with no anger.

Running around like lunatics in Raja Persiaran Muda. It was a happy day. Really it is. I so wanna go back to that time, so so badly.

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A rusty train making circles around a small coffee table on a Friday night.(What train? you might think).A train doesn't mean it has to be the useless train we see everyday in KL. No and no. Not the faded paint transport that collects people from one destination to another. Well, creativity works best when it is left alone and quietly, it becomes something out of nothing. This train brought words instead of humans but started of like normal, the boring letters of 'A,B,C,D,etc". Crazy huh? The small train packed with firstly, a miserable word then two words, a few words and involving to millions. Words built into a sentence and further growing to numerous sentences. Topics flying everywhere above the passenger seats consisting of memories, a bit of a thing called '' it's shitty being me" attached to sarcasms, jokes and more sarcasms!

The journey only lasted for 3hours. It started of with an engine starter who is Notorious Bryan, making some star wars joke which is seriouslygoddamnfunny. Made a detour, it traveled anti-clockwise reaching a bit of the ''Golden high school days''. The train definitely got delayed because of some bastards including me who couldn't stop laughing because of Bryan's voice transformation into Yoda's. The imaginary ride of topics went for a pit-stop because food+boys = _____(youtellme). I say "satisfaction" only until perhaps, the next 3 to 4 hours then hunger takes place again. The ride continued slowly after all of us finished the meal.  Then, we stumbled upon the bitter assignments topic and the final stop was at 'girls profile pictures' which well, guys will be guys. I've gotta admit. Technical skills they have? HD! Damn they're good. 

Clinging

Bad bad bad bad bad bad bad week. Some asshole kissed the the Honda City and when things I thought would be fine. Drove mom's car and pooofff are #$%^&*$%^&*( flat tyre.

A Feeling

I always have tormenting thoughts after a good time. It sucks real bad.

Angus & Julia Stone - Take You Away

“The Secret” by Jeffrey McDaniel

When you were sleeping on the sofa
I put my ear to your ear and listened
to the echo of your dreams.

That is the ocean I want to dive in,
merge with the bright fish,
plankton and pirate ships.

I walk up to people on the street that kind of look like you
and ask them the questions I would ask you.

Can we sit on a rooftop and watch stars dissolve into smoke
rising from a chimney?
Can I swing like Tarzan in the jungle of your breathing?

I don’t wish I was in your arms,
I just wish I was peddling a bicycle
toward your arms.

Brother

I can't get angry with my own brother. I can't do it. As much as I wanna rip his head off at times, I can't. Honestly, he's an ass. A real clown in the family. I envy because I am the one who has that heavy and lazy mouth. Moving an inch is like sprinting from town to KL. Everything changed when we were growing up. No more football session in the garden. No more football lessons. No more basketball lessons. No more of the same interest because he has his noisy drums in his room which is suicidal when I'm having my afternoon naps! Setting an example for the younger ones. That's a quote where parents wish the older sibling swill put up for the younger siblings. I'm the youngest so his message to me is always indirectly because he's always goofing around. I never see him in the day because our timing is different now. My morning is his night and his night is his morning. Plus, he's working now. I always noticed his message that surrounds me. Don't have a life which destroys happiness at any cause or time. Life is hard. Make it easy.

Hi this is my retarded student card.

WTA