White

Pain is a part of life. Sometimes it’s a big part, and sometimes it isn’t, but either way, it’s a part of the big puzzle, the deep music, the great game. Pain does two things: It teaches you, tells you that you’re alive. Then it passes away and leaves you changed. It leaves you wiser, sometimes. Sometimes it leaves you stronger. Either way, pain leaves its mark, and everything important that will ever happen to you in life is going to involve it in one degree or another.

—	Jim Butcher, White Night

Gift

Ryan did this for dad's birthday.

Car

Trees

Dream

“A good way to fall in love
is to turn off the headlights
and drive very fast down dark roads.
Another way to fall in love
is to say they are only mints
and swallow them with a strong drink.
Then it is autumn in the body.
Your hands are cold.
Then it is winter and we are still at war.
The gold-haired girl is singing into your ear
about how we live in a beautiful country.
Snow sifts from the clouds
into your drink. It doesn’t matter about the war.
A good way to fall in love
is to close up the garage and turn the engine on,
then down you’ll fall through lovely mists
as a body might fall early one morning
from a high window into love. Love,
the broken glass. Love, the scissors
and the water basin. A good way to fall
is with a rope to catch you.
A good way is with something to drink
to help you march forward.
The gold-haired girl says, Don’t worry
about the armies, says, We live in a time
full of love. You’re thinking about this too much.
Slow down. Nothing bad will happen.”

— Kevin Prufer, “In a Beautiful Country”

Clumsy

“A bouquet of clumsy words: you know that place between sleep and awake where your still dreaming but it’s slowly slipping? I wish we could feel like that more often. I also wish I could click my fingers three times and be transported to anywhere I like. I wish that people didn’t always say ‘just wondering’ when you both know there was a real reason behind them asking. And I wish I could get lost in the stars. Listen, there’s a hell of a good universe next door, let’s go.”
— E.E.Cummings

Have you?

Have you ever had those unbearable moments where everything doesn’t go your way? You try do the easiest thing possible that can even be done by a newborn; to move your right leg forward but it ends with the left one moving. The concoction of failures, depression and frustrations, all twist and turn in your mind. The only thing that you want to do is to get rid of all these burdens but you cant let go of it because it’s like a haunted figure that never seem to be satisfy with you. Then, all sorts of unnecessary stress and anger suddenly frightened you until you lost yourself completely. So you scream at your loudest and weep at the most weird places ever; in the car, the bathroom, your friend’s house or while you’re jogging around your neighbourhood.

Have you ever turn off the engine of your car, the headlights and just stare into the darkness in the middle of the road? And think of what it is gonna be like in the next ten years or the next twenty years? and even if it is just for minutes, you’ll always feel it’s forever. Then, you slowly start back the engine and drive away, hoping no one you know had noticed you.

Have you ever felt that everyone around you is moving on, maybe a hundred steps ahead of you but you’re still at the same old starting point of life, hoping for the better but never want to risk anything. And you try to make yourself better by