Allow

It's completely different now. University life. You walk in one door and there's different set of faces. Thinking about college is a real waste now. Seeing friends in Australia. Everyone is allocated at different parts of another land, situated around a compass. One is in east, the other two, west. Absolute bummer man.

Ears

Lucy Rose - Night Bus
Right The Stars - You Know The Way
Ryan Adams - Wonderwall
Angus & Julia Stone - Black Crow
Ed Sheeran - Drunk
M83 - Midnight City
Of Monster and Men - Little Talks
The Wanted - Lightning
The Drums - The Future
Karen O & The Kids - All Is Love
Avalanche City - Love Love Love
Death Cab For Cutie - Soul Meets Body
Star Slinger - May I Walk With You
Two Door Cinema Club - Come Back Home

Bright

Friends. We need them mostly for distraction when we have a concoction of anger,misery and depression. We need them but some times they fail to enlighten you. The credits you did for them were miraculous..triumphant. They need you when they need you. When you need them> They'll shatter you in broken pieces. As painful as a broken arm. A solemn and silent pain slowly announcing how bad it is from mind to body. A friend said '' You have to be selfish sometimes''. I think I'm done being the nice one. People tend to take you for granted. Babies want their mothers. Children want toys. Teens want material things. If I have a choice, I'll take all that away from you,friend.

Season

A daughter enters her father's van. A rusty van. The ones where the windows are always down while the driver smokes his lungs out. As if he's bothered enough. The girl had that innocent looking face but it went pale as she approached the van. Meanwhile, I was in the car. I had stupid thoughts on my head. Thank God the windows of the car we tainted because as I was thinking, I was also looking at the girl unconsciously. Wouldn't want the dad to see and go bizarre. She got into the van. The father looked at her. When unconscious meets conscious in me, he gruesomely pushes her head and hits her.While she was left to bleed mentally. She remained silent. All I could do was to stare at pain. Pain she experienced transferred to me.

Saturday Love

I know that I can't tell you my mind is running circles.
My eyes have begun to swirl, like death, but it's not as sterile.
I ain't gonna' let you down. I ain't gonna' let you leave me.
I'm sorry but I can't tell you about life, but it makes me crazy, 
So I just like to daydream, 'cause dreams only make me happy.
Will you come along my love? Will you come along here with me?

Stay

Finding happiness for some people is like torture. They have to sacrifice so much to gain happiness. They explain it as though they're walking deep inside a tropical greenery where the air is humid and above, the sun is not afraid to shine. It exposes all the sunbeam to the ground making some plants die and others blooming ( By now,you should know that a few people will have their answers while others are still searching). If you look further, you then have to climb over tall mountains which are as tall as an endless sky. When you're already at the top of the world, happiness is all the way up there, upon those thick black clouds. Suddenly, the sun is covered by darkness. Everything suddenly turns ugly and what you see is only dark colours around you.Then, you think 'Happiness seem to be a gloomy word'. In the end, people just forget about it and think how ludicrous and ridiculous they were from the beginning. You won't get your way all the time. You will fall.

I believe big things can be just small things noticed. Don't tell me you need expensive things to make you happy. Not all the time, it's a person anyway. If it is so be it. You're alone. I'm alone. We're not lonely. We're just alone. Ignore how others find happiness. Be selfish for once. Love yourself for once. Listen to yourself for once.

 Do what you love. Read a book, play the violin no matter how shitty you are, Run... run as though freedom's hands just grab hold onto yours. It definitely fits perfectly. Never let it go.

Lesson Learned

Sometimes people are beautiful.


Not in looks.


Not in what they say.


Just in what they are.

TBYL

T

The long hours of talking on the bed, in starbucks, in the car and etc...It's...really awesome. I'll be there soon. A year. A frigging year. Just wait for me!

Last time I saw my cousin was in 2008. We're almost 19 now and discovered a lot shit while growing up. A whole lot of douchebag stories we exchanged. Her, I can trust. I'll  miss you!

Trees

It's not easy taking family photos. For everyone to get ready is like ... haha